Have you ever had a season where it felt like everything is exactly as it should be. And you worked hard to get there. It’s what we dream about and pray for. We think that is the place when we finally find it, we should stay there because that’s what the Lord would want us to have. We proved our faithfulness and this is the result of it.
The crazy thing about it , is when we arrive to that “place” we lose sight of the fact that this world, the life we live, is not about our own happiness or “dream life” we envision. As a Christian it’s about so much more.
It’s about sacrifice, it’s about selflessness. We must sacrifice the “idea of what should be” to live in the purpose He created for us.
Many people are watching this next step of our life and see it as me submitting my job for the sake of Adams. (Which in some capacity that is the military life) But what God is really showing me is it’s not about giving up what I want for what Adam wants it’s about giving up what I want for what God has in store for me to do. He is simply using our jobs in this season as a means to get there.
It sounds silly but I truly am living what I thought was the dream I longed for. Infact it’s what I prayed for. I wanted to work in full time Ministry at a church I love that is truly showing others the Love and Truth of Jesus through what is taught & what is shared through serving within our community. I wanted to be a wife and mom and have a schedule that allowed me to do that. To have a community of people who understand our lifestyle as a first responder or veteran with the military. I am living what I thought the dream was. But this life, this dream, needs to align with His will and not our own.
So we are packing and moving and I have this expectancy knowing that God, at the end of the day, has something in store for us. As I sit here and listen…His only answer is “I am here…you just have to wait”. Jesus’ character is exactly that “you do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand” John 13:7
he said this as he washed Peters feet. And Peter initially rejects its but Jesus responds: unless you submit to my ways even when you do not understand, your life will not align with mine.
Each season EVEN WHEN WE THINK WE KNOW….we don’t actually know what He is doing. He just calls us to take each step in obedience. Aligning our hearts and lives with His will knowing it’s ultimately for others to come to know Him. So while I cry because I am leaving the love and security of my friendships and job and community, I have a peace and stirring expectancy because Every time in the past we have been called to a next step it has always been for something so much bigger than ourselves and so much bigger than what we think it will be.
God said there will be more. Just wait. There will be pain but there will be joy. And do not fear in that. Trust it is all for His purpose.
Survival Mode 